(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa on March 28, 1999, but soon lost my cultivation environment when the persecution started. My understanding of the Fa principles at that time was very low, so when I was talking to people about Falun Gong and distributing truth clarification materials, it was all done with a strong human heart.
I was soon arrested and taken to a labor camp, where I was forced to renounce my belief. I was later used by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and began doing things that I am truly ashamed of.
Our compassionate Master was not willing to give up on me though, and repeatedly sent fellow practitioners to help me return to cultivation. But I was too lost and refused to accept Master's hints time and time again.
In early 2012, I got hold of a Shen Yun DVD. I watched the show and tears started to stream down my face. I finally knew that I had made a big mistake. I had wronged Dafa and Master and all my fellow practitioners. I had also let down my family members who cared about me.
From that day on, I stepped back onto the path of cultivation, but with a certain amount of uneasiness. I was worried that Master would not want me anymore, that fellow practitioners would not trust me anymore, and I was ashamed to face practitioners that I used to know. Then I read Master's Fa:
“As your Master, I have never kept account of the wrong things you have done in your cultivation; I remember only the good things you have done and your accomplishments. Dafa disciples have made it through during cultivation and unparalleled evil persecution, so they are deeply aware of the hardships in cultivation, and they won’t fail to understand the students who have gone down the wrong path. So I am telling you one more time here: All students who have made these kinds of mistakes, starting now it’s best that you publicly state that you are getting rid of that filthy burden and returning to Dafa.”
“During a human being’s journey toward divinity, since it is a human being—and not a god—cultivating, he will definitely make mistakes in the process of cultivating, and there will definitely be tests that he doesn’t pass well. And of course there are those who make huge mistakes.”(“Pass the Deadly Test” from The Essentials of Diligent Progress Vol. III.”)
I couldn't hold back my tears. Master is so magnificent, so magnanimous, so compassionate. Master picked me up from the depraved depths that I had allowed myself to sink into!
When I understood the mistakes I had made, I immediately went searching for fellow practitioners and shared my thoughts with them. I quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations straightaway and made a solemn declaration, stating that every word I had ever spoken and written that was slanderous to, and critical of, Master and Dafa was null and void. I also swore that I would be faithful to Falun Gong to the end.
My husband was very upset when he heard that I had started practicing again. I talked to him patiently, telling him every magical thing that had happened to me because I practiced Dafa. I reminded him that my health was not good before, but once I started practicing my physical ailments all disappeared.
I told my husband about the time when I was out of town with a fellow practitioner. It started to rain really hard on our way home. We were walking along sharing an umbrella and did not realize a man riding a tricycle was heading straight at us. Perhaps he also didn’t see us because of the heavy rain. It was only when I heard a big bang and saw a tricycle had been knocked over a few meters away from me that I realized he had run into me.
The man seemed startled and yelled: “Have you got your eyes closed? You walked straight into me!” The man didn't seem to be hurt. He stood there for a while and then rode off. After the man left I thought, “Master has just protected me!”
I told my husband that Master still looks after me, even though I had made big mistakes. I said, “Now that Dafa has given me a second chance in life, what excuse do I have not to let people know the truth about Falun Gong, not to validate the Fa?” My husband had nothing to say in response.
Every day I study the Fa, do the exercises and send forth righteous thoughts. Whenever I meet people with a predestined relationship, I tell them about Dafa’s greatness and about the persecution.
In the fall of 2012, I twisted my back at work and could hardly move. When I got home, my husband was very concerned. He repeatedly told me to stay at home and rest, and that I shouldn’t go to work the next day. I told him that I was fine. I said: “I am a practitioner. I have Master watching over me.”
That night, my back got worse. If I made the slightest movement, I was in excruciating pain. My husband looked at me and said: “Tomorrow, we’ll go to the hospital and have the doctor look at your back.” I gave my husband the same response: “It’s nothing. I’m okay.”
I knew it was the old forces using the pain to persecute me and refused to acknowledge it.
At 11:55 p.m. that evening, the global time for sending forth righteous thoughts, I insisted on sitting up, enduring the pain, so that I could be part of the one body. As I was sending righteous thoughts, I felt a tremendous force pushing on my back. Suddenly, the pain lessened. I knew that Master was helping me.
The next morning my husband sarcastically remarked, “If your back is OK today then I will practice Falun Gong with you.”
When I got home from work that evening, my husband saw me walking at a brisk pace. He asked me if my back was OK, and I happily replied, “Yes, of course!”
After dinner, my husband sat cross-legged on the bed and meditated. He said: “I'm finally convinced. I believe Falun Gong is good, and is nothing like what the CCP has been saying!” Every day he now recites, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.”
A neighbor noticed how my back had recovered so quickly, and asked what I did to get better. I told her that it was because I practice Falun Gong, and that if one believes 'Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good' then everything will be okay. The neighbor said: “You have told me how good Falun Gong was before, but I wasn’t completely convinced. Now, I am.”
My husband was at work one day, when he came down with a high fever and started vomiting. So he left work early and came home. He told me that he was planning to drop by a drug store to get some medicine, but remembered what I kept telling him; that if he recites 'Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,' everything will be OK. So, he came straight home.
The next day, my husband completely recovered. He was so happy that whenever he has a chance, he tells people about his experience. He also tells them to recite, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.”
After I clarified the facts to two of my husband's friends, they quit the CCP. They also asked for a Falun Gong exercise DVD. They were very grateful. One of them said: “Thank you both so much. Falun Gong is truly good. However, please be careful. The Communist Party is very bad.”
Whenever I have copies of Minghui Weekly and other truth clarification materials, I share them with my daughter. Slowly, she has understood more and more about Falun Gong. Then one day she told me: “The Communist Party is evil. It’s corrupt and rotten. It has done and is still doing so many bad things. The sooner it's destroyed the better!”
My daughter now reads Zhuan Falun whenever she has time, and encourages me to save more people. Sometimes she will help me talk to people about quitting the CCP so as to encourage them to quickly withdraw from the Party.
My mother-in-law lives with my husband and me. After I talked to her about Falun Gong, I often hear her recite, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” Sometimes when she gets up in the middle of the night to use the toilet, I can hear her reciting the words. She has already quit the Party, and now insists on helping out with the household chores so that I can spend more time clarifying the facts to others. Our family is filled with peace and harmony!
In the process of helping people withdraw from the CCP, I have gained a deeper understanding that it is Dafa and our great Master that have the ability to save people. We are given the opportunity to improve ourselves in the process.
In this last phase of Fa-rectification process, I will use my compassion to save more people.
Here, I want to apologize to everyone I have or might have hurt in the past, and to thank everyone who has helped me through the years.
I also want to express my hope that fellow practitioners who have not yet come forward, to grasp their last opportunity to follow Master home.
