(Minghui.org) Several practitioners in my area were illegally detained after they filed criminal complaints against former communist head Jiang Zemin. Some of them have also been persecuted by their companies under the orders of the 610 Office. I became fearful.
I kept pushing the fear down and tried to look inward. When I was previously held in a detention center, I was not afraid to do the exercises or clarify the facts. So where was this fear coming from? Sending forth righteous thoughts and reciting the Fa only temporarily alleviated my fear. I began feeling more and more pressure.
I kept looking inward and found many attachments. But the attachment to fear kept flaring up, which disturbed my Fa-study and ability to do the exercises calmly. I began to feel that I was at the limit of my endurance. When I tried to study Zhuan Falun and Teacher's lectures, I stopped when my thoughts began to wander and sent forth righteous thoughts. Then I resumed where I left off.
I soon came across this paragraph:
“From what I’ve seen in the U.S., all students who have come out of the mainland have taken half a year before they could recover. They’re afraid just walking down the street. (Everyone laughs) That’s because of the psychological pressure from the Red Terror (Master laughs), and that substance has yet to be eliminated.” ("2012 International Fa Conference at the U.S. Capital")
I suddenly understood: This notion of fear came from the “Red Terror.”
When I dug deeper, I realized this “Red Terror” comes from the Party's culture. The Party's culture is based on atheism, which is a lie. If we can negate atheism, there is no “Red Terror” and the persecution will be no more.
Dafa disciples are walking on the path to godhood. We are not helpless due to the “Red Terror.” Because Teacher has bestowed upon us mighty power, He is also looking after us at all times. So why should we ever be afraid?
As soon as I began looking at the situation as a Falun Dafa disciple should, my fear instantly disappeared. I felt grateful but also ashamed. Teacher has covered everything in the Fa, but I couldn't see it due to my limited level. I allowed myself to be deceived by the old forces. I truly let Teacher down.
Afterward, whenever I felt fear surfacing, it no longer moved me. The fear disappeared as soon as I remembered this line from Zhuan Falun:
“I’m not an ordinary person. I’m a practitioner. You shouldn’t treat me this way ...”.
I'm sharing my experience with practitioners, some of whom may have had similar issues. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.
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