Truly and Solidly Cultivating Myself
(Minghui.org) I started to practice Falun Dafa in April 2011. At the time, I didn’t have an in-depth understanding of the Fa, and thus, with strong human attachments, I regarded doing Dafa work as my cultivation. This misunderstanding gave the old forces an opportunity to persecute me.
When I was handing out Shen Yun DVDs, I was reported to the local police and subsequently detained for 15 days.
Upon returning home, I noticed that my portrait of Master (the founder of Falun Dafa), my printer, and Dafa books were missing. My daughter told me that they had been confiscated by the police.
Losing my Dafa books, for me, meant losing my life. My life became meaningless. I discussed this issue with other practitioners and planned to get the books back from the police.
One practitioner said, “Don’t be in such a hurry! It seems your daughter didn’t tell you the truth. You’d better talk to her again.” I then thought: I was detained at the police station and didn't reveal my personal details to anyone. How could they know where I lived?
I spoke to my daughter. I told her to look me in the eyes and tell me the truth. I said, “Were the Dafa books taken by the police?”
She turned her back on me and said, “If you still practice Falun Dafa, I will commit suicide.”
At that moment, I realized that the old forces were using my daughter to try and stop me from cultivating. I remembered a quote from Zhuan Falun and said to both her and the old forces, “...everybody has his own fate!”
My daughter didn't say anything, but her silence made me anxious. After two weeks, the situation had still not changed. She still didn’t give me the books back.
As long as I couldn't read the Dafa books, I felt nervous and insecure. I was thinking about being more forceful with my daughter. Then, Master’s Fa appeared in my mind:
“Wherever a problem occurs, that's where you need to clarify the facts.” (“Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference”)
I said to my daughter kindly, “I practice Falun Dafa and try to be a good person, which is the right thing to do. You will benefit from what I do, but you must not oppose Dafa. You should be supportive. The Dafa books are the law of the cosmos. The printer produces materials to help save people. Please return them to me.”
When I asked my daughter where my Dafa books were the following day, she told me that she had brought them back and put them out on the balcony.
Practitioners' Steadfast Righteous Thoughts Are Powerful
A practitioner and I were once talking to a middle-aged man about Falun Dafa and the persecution. I asked him if he knew about Falun Dafa and said, “Quitting the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) can give you a bright future.”
The man told me that his mother-in-law was practicing Falun Dafa, but he hadn’t quit the Party. I told him about the CCP's history of killing, but he didn’t want to listen and started to argue with me. The other practitioner then spoke to him, as I sent forth righteous thoughts targeting the dark minions, rotten demons, and all of the old force elements in other dimensions controlling him. However, the man kept arguing.
How could we save him?
“Under the effect of righteous thoughts, everything around you, as well as you yourself, will undergo changes. Yet you have never thought to give it a try.” (“20th Anniversary Fa Teaching”)
Keeping this in mind, I seriously told the man, “If you don’t listen to the truth, how can you be saved? We are trying to help you.” He then stopped arguing and started to listen. His attitude changed and, after we finished talking, he agreed to quit the Party. He was grateful to us. We both smiled back at him, and I said, “You should be grateful to our Master! It is our Master who saves you.”
Looking Within Helps Remove Attachments and Improves Health
A doctor removed a tumor from between my left eye and eyebrow about twenty years ago. However, a tumor started to appear in the same place after I began practicing Falun Dafa.
During the past two years, my left eye sometimes became red and started watering. I thought about my appearance every time I went out to talk to people about Dafa, and contemplated seeing my doctor to get it removed.
But remembering that I was a Dafa practitioner, I refrained from making a doctor's appointment. However, the tumor grew bigger recently, which seriously affected my Fa-study, as it was rubbing on my eye. I had a very strong desire to get it removed at the hospital, as I couldn’t understand why the tumor was there and had become quite frustrated.
During recent Fa study, a paragraph always seemed to catch my attention:
“Any time some kind of interference comes along in your practice, you have to look within for the cause and find what it is you still haven’t let go of.” (Zhuan Falun)
I kept asking myself, “What is interfering with me? What attachment haven’t I let go of?” But I couldn’t find the answer.
A practitioner recently had a problem with her eye. I went to see her, and she told me that some practitioners advised her to see a doctor. Whenever I visited her, she kept mentioning this to me. I knew that Master was using this practitioner’s words to help me. But what was it?
A week ago, I studied the Fa for a longer time than normal. I felt that it was harder to open my left eye, and my sight became blurry. A thought then appeared, telling me to go and see a doctor.
I said in my mind: I am a cultivator, a human being on my way to godhood. How can a doctor solve a future God’s problem? I am a cultivator who is looked after by Master. My Master can solve any problem.
After looking within, and with my new understanding, I could now study the Fa with a clear mind and measure myself in line with Dafa.
“Maybe you think that by practicing qigong you healed some area of your body that had a problem, or that maybe some qigong master healed it for you, and that now it’s relapsed. That’s because he didn’t heal it, he only put it off for you. It’s still right where it was, so the health problem didn’t surface back then but it would later on. We have to dig all of those out, drive them all out for you, and completely get rid of them at the root.” (Zhuan Falun)
I understood that when the doctor removed my tumor twenty years ago, he only deferred the karma to a later time.
I said to Master in my mind, “If the old forces try to make my eye affect my Fa-study, then I will not acknowledge it and will disintegrate the interference by sending forth righteous thoughts. If the problem is caused by my karma, then please push it out straight away. I will be able to get through the hardship, since I am now aware of the reason behind it.”
The next morning, my upper eyelid became slightly swollen. The swelling became more serious the following morning. On the third morning, my lower eyelid became swollen as well, oozing yellow pus all day.
The swelling started to subside by the fourth day, and the tumor disappeared by the seventh day.
During the whole process of eliminating my karma, many of my attachments were revealed, such as fear, seeking comfort, and showing off. That week proved to be a great time to cultivate my xinxing.
As I became aware of my various attachments, I removed them and let go of my ego. I handed over everything of mine to Master. No matter how bad I felt, I didn’t care. I put on my sunglasses, went out to talk to people about Dafa, and did the three things that a Dafa practitioner should do every day.